Put yourself on the page

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Jordan Aubin

“Put yourself on the page.”

As a first-year sitting in English Composition, these were the words my professor uttered that echoed through my head. Urging us to be honest and reveal ourselves through writing, the words my professor said took on a metaphorical meaning to me.

Throughout elementary school and even high school, my teachers and peers always referred to me as a quiet kid. Some of my close friends might disagree, but generally, I strike people who don’t know me well or don’t know me at all as shy and reserved.

After sitting through that class, that was something I wanted to change. To me, being referred to as quiet meant that I was mundane and forgettable, and that’s the last thing I wanted to feel about my experience at college. I wanted to be someone you could come up to, talk to and be friends with. I wanted to put myself on the page.

Throughout my time here, I think that’s something I was able to do.

Freshman year, I introduced myself to everyone on my floor, and by the end of the year, we were family.

Sophomore year, I joined the Sophomore Initiative at Assumption (SOPHIA), where I went on my first retreat ever. We reflected and opened up to each other, and at the time, we were a group of people who were just getting to know one another. We even got to go to Rome at the end of the year.

Junior year, I became increasingly involved in intramurals and joined Le Provocateur as the online editor. I also read two poems in front of a large group of people in the d’Alzon Library.

Senior year, I became the sports editor of Le Provocateur, and the memories in the office are too numbered to list. And while many of my fellow seniors were together for spring break, I opted to travel to Ireland with a group of total strangers.

I’m not listing these things I’ve done and been involved in to brag, but to show that by taking a chance, I’ve been able to be a part of something that matters to me. And more importantly, I’ve been able to make some unique, true and genuine friends.

However, it hasn’t been easy. Like everyone else, I get nervous about new situations and environments. But I’m a firm believer that if you aren’t stepping outside your comfort zone, then you aren’t growing as a person. Getting over that fear is hard, but it’s a chance you have to take if you want to change.

The kids I met freshman year will forever be the Des 2 Crew. The guys in the SOPHIA program who I went to Rome with will forever be the Bromans. And while I don’t have a catchy nickname for people I’ve done intramurals with, the people I went to Ireland with or my Provoc peeps, they all hold a place in my heart.

As I sit writing this column at midnight, I’m faced with the harsh reality that I have just over two weeks left on this campus. The place I called home for four years, where I made so many memories, will soon be a thing of the past. But there are moments and friendships that will last forever.

Those moments when I’m crying in laughter over a YouTube video that my roommates and I just watched or that moment when I’m talking to my friend about what vocation means to me.

It’s those kinds of moments that make me pause and appreciate what I’ve been able to experience at Assumption. Those small, seemingly insignificant moments are the real beauties in life that are truly indispensable.
I might not be the most outgoing person, but through my time here, I’ve come out of my shell and therefore become close with so many incredible people. Hopefully they will still call me “Jaubin” even years after I graduate.

There is no doubting that the education at Assumption is great. But the friends you make and those stupid, strange, awesome moments are what really matter to me. And those friends and moments that I will cherish forever would not have existed if I hadn’t taken chances on things that were new and interesting to me.

Put yourself on the page, however that may be.

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